The meditative, almost hypnotic rhythm of garter stitch has proved to be restorative. Going back to basics was a good way to feel good about my knitting, a good way to build confidence in my skills and a good way to let the process flow.
As happens often when I near the end of a project, a feeling of fear creeps in and I start second guessing what I'm doing, what's been knit. Confidence dips, hopes fade and dread takes over. Usually the feeling passes quickly as I look back at the many successful projects knit over the years, but this time I nearly panicked. My emotions are often near the surface, worn on my sleeve, and sometimes it isn't easy to calm down, abate the fear and move on.
Saturday afternoon, as I worked on Frida the fear struck because she looked like a huge, bigass blob in my lap. The second skein of Turquoise Shepherd's Wool was almost gone. OMG, do I need to buy even more yarn, is this shawl going on forever, are the tails more like tentacles, is this thing big as a blanket, (will it eat me alive)?!?
After pulling all 750+ stitches off the needles and trying it on, I thought it might be okay, but the fear was still strong. I folded it up and tucked it into my knitting bag (it fills the whole thing up) and decided to asked the best knitting consultation group in the country, the SnB grrls.
Each grrl is an accomplished knitter and they all have large portfolios of finished projects. But, above all they are caring, honest, good friends. I knew they'd tell me what to do. Shelley tried it on and I had to admit the shawl looked great. To a person they said it was perfect, it shouldn't be any smaller, and to finish it as it was. Later that night I put all the stitches back on the needle and knit to the end of the turquoise ball. Tonight I'll bind off while watching the movie Frida. It will be the perfect ending for my trip back to the basics.
Smith and I thank you for the warm and heartfelt good wishes. We feel very blessed to have many good friends and each other.