Do you remember the last time you saw any knitting on this blog? Knitting is happening, although I have not been sharing my progress. I'm rather pleased with the results and the long-suffering Henley is on the verge of completion. Each attempt at photographing the evidence has produced less than quality proof of life. However, you've already seen the beautiful blue fabric, with cabled twists and lacy bits, and it looks much the same.
The front, back and one sleeve needed to be shortened (by several inches) as they grew more than I'd expected when blocked. Ripping back nearly broke my heart but, it was therapeutic and the process of recreation put me back on track. This sweater may yet become a reality.
I've been working on breaking through this fog and ennui for a year and half. Getting back to normal has been a roller coaster ride, a ride where what's coming can't be seen, and I've had to hang on and go where it takes me. Forward movement has been in tiny steps.
In some ways, I've been hard on myself and, in other ways, I've been self-indulgent. Pushing oneself, asking a little more each day, can build character and strength. I haven't pushed, haven't asked for more and, because of that, I feel my growth has been slowed.
Recently, I decided to make a renewed effort at focus. I knew if I worked on this project, and no other, I could make progress and, while knitting has been very, very slow, focus has payed off. Finally knitting of Henley is finished, the process of seaming and finishing will soon begin. You have no idea how good this feels.
I can't wait to see you in your sweater!
xoxo
Posted by: Kim | March 31, 2011 at 05:53 AM
Loving those blue twists! Your spirit shines through and takes you where you want to go.
Posted by: Laurie | March 31, 2011 at 07:49 PM
So glad that even after all that with the pushing and persevering you get the good feelings!
xo
Posted by: Sarah | April 01, 2011 at 02:04 AM
you managed to perfectly describe my own feelings as i've dealt with mown health issues in the past year. I'm struggling right now to start pushing myself back to a more active life.
Posted by: Kristin | April 06, 2011 at 08:35 AM