Having successfully finished any favorite sweater, this time two in a row,
adds to the difficultly of deciding what comes next. When I sit in the
glow of a perfect project it taints everything else and the jump to the
next big thing becomes a huge leap of faith. Will the new sweater be as
nice as the last; won't my luck run out at some point?
Last week nothing was working. I'd read the gauge wrong for the next sweater. The gauge was 13 st to 4". My eyes had seen 18 st to 4". Must not read patterns without my glasses! Time was short….the end of February loomed and the hope to have sweater number three completed before March 1st was evaporating. Must stay ahead of the game. The next few sweaters in the queue were complicated, did have the right "feel" and could not be finished in the time I'd allotted. Yes, this is a silly game and one I promised to not participate in, but there you have it…the desire was for a sweater completed by February 28 and that's that. Is my Zen evaporating?
There has been much hemming and hawing, starting and frogging, swatching and gnashing of teeth, pulling of hair and biting of nails (not very Zen, I realize), but when the right yarn and pattern marry it's worth all the terror and tears...the "ah ha" moment strikes and happiness abounds. What a feeling! All angst, all (self) doubt, all disorder is gone, love and peace fill the knitting landscape. Ah, Zen returns.
The third sweater is another that wasn't on the radar when the whole MoDo thing was cooked up. Golden Vintage had been in my queue since Thea published it, but the right yarn hadn't presented itself…that was until I walked into Three Wishes a week or so ago and saw Spinderella's Thrums, a unique yarn from right here in Salt Lake City. (I've spun Spinderella's fiber thrums but had no idea she also made them into yarn.) The content was a merino silk blend and the sheen and hand were elegant. I couldn't leave it behind and bought enough for an unknown sweater. There is promise in a new yarn and the joy is to unfold the mystery, find the right combination, and the magic in the process. The minute Golden Vintage Cardigan popped into my head, I knew it was right, I felt it would be an enjoyable process.
There is magic in knitting (similar to the magic of baseball). Do you see the magic and mystery? It requires faith to begin a project whether socks, shawl or sweater. When everything comes together and the process is effortless, we see the magic, we become one with the process as the mystery unfolds. If we listen to our hearts and something, even one little thing, isn't right we know that too. Hitting that home run, hitting a double, hell, even hitting a single lifts us up and keeps us on the path. Being is the goal, doing is the key.