Life is lived in little increments of time. Chances are that while in the middle of a task, thoughts will turn to the future, or the past, and not stay in the 'now'. The future wool market, tonight's Stitch 'n Bitch, or the conversation we had three days ago, may come to mind more easily than awareness of the moment. Rarely do we look at the here and now as part of life, or at least until it is the past, and then only if it is memorable in some way. With the focus of our daily lives being more about the past and future than the present we miss out on 'living'.
Knitting is created in much the same way. As the stitches are formed thoughts of the finished product dance in our heads. If the need to back track or frogging becomes apparent we bemoan the 'lost' time. Knitting in the now, the present, knitting for the joy of the process, takes a back seat to 'progress', the joy of creation.
Yesterday Sylvia sent me to Sara Lamb's blog. Because work is hectic at the end of the month, I have been too busy to get around blogland much, and was please for the 'heads up'. Sara's post on Wednesday speaks so well of the reason we create with fiber. Please read it. She explains so well how we still go on and continue to knit despite a knitting disaster or the need to frog.
After reading my Daily Zen horoscope a few days ago, the realization came to me why I seem to have lost 'the process'. Knitting hasn't stopped but, it isn't in my lap constantly as it has been for the last 5 years. The horoscope said "You may find your attention being pulled in many directions... your thoughts may wander down a number of different avenues, even after you have made a decision... making a choice will move you toward what you want."
I understood immediately what had slowed my knitting mojo. Bonne Marie has a new design, CeCe which is so perfect for summer and it would be fabulous in the denim color of Hempathy that I bought for Tilia. However, Hempathy is too small for CeCe and I have also decided that I'd like Tilia in a brighter color. That means the Hempathy will sit in my stash, an unassigned yarn (which goes against my stashilosophy) and I will need to buy yarn for CeCe AND Tilia if I am to knit them anytime soon.
To complicate matters, I bought Stria for a new cardigan and while I would like to knit it soon I want to finish Cutaway first. Plus, there are two summer patterns in the latest Rowan that are calling to me and there is no stash yarn for either. All my stash seems to be wool. The delusions of grandeur that I suffer from on occasion seem to be coming along well with the warmer weather. And all the choices before me have seemed to stop me in my tracks.
Mim's Eleanora socks are on my needles and grow slowly and beautifully. However, the delusions carry over into socks as well. So many socks to knit...you, know how it goes. I'm tempted to take up knitting half a pair as Cara does. Mamacate inspired a button that Colleen made for all of us who knit Socks for Sanity. See it on my sidebar? Socks seem to be comfort knitting for so many of us. And, stashing sock yarn can be just as comforting, as Amanda has proclaimed in her post on Tuesday.
To abate the former ennui, and what has now become the delusional mind, I have been heading to the gym a little more frequently and walking on an inclined treadmill (oh, my aching butt). Time to get ready for summer hiking season. For motivation, and fun, I've joined the I'm Fit and I Knit group. New buttons are rather fun, eh?
May the weekend will be filled with knitting, and not just turning around in circles, as I try to make a decision and, hopefully, find 'the process' again. Maybe
some shopping looking around the LYS is in order (and/or a new sock or maybe I should just cast on the Stria or perhaps there is something.....oh well...sigh.)